My “Job” Anniversary!

Four years ago yesterday, God blessed me with the most rewarding job I could/would ever have the privilege of obtaining. Motherhood.

Sissy turned 4 yesterday, and while it was a stressful day, it was a sad day as well. We quickly realized that our baby girl was growing up! She will start preschool next year, and before we know it, she’ll be graduating high school!

I can’t believe how big she has gotten! It seems like it was just yesterday when I laid in the hospital bed worrying about taking her home with just me and her daddy. Now, I lay in the bed and am blessed beyond belief that God has trusted us with her!

I will post some pictures of her party, along with some stories that today I laugh about, but yesterday, at cried about!

4 Heavenly Angels waiting on me

Well, after much waiting, we finally found out that I indeed did miscarry.

I went to the doctor this past Thursday and got a negative test. Which I was expecting seeing as I had bled for a week leading up to it…and 3 days after.

I’ve had a few people tell me how I am handling it much better than they would, but if they only knew! We had month, A MONTH, to prepare for either another baby here on earth or another one in Heaven. We prepared ourselves so much that we knew that either way, we’d be okay and make it through.

We have talked about maybe trying for another one, but not anytime soon. We have a 4 year old and a 2 year old to keep up with right now. Maybe after Sissy starts school, or even after Bubba! We will see….

Am I or Am I Not?!?!

It’s been 3 weeks since I found out I was expecting again…only to learn a week later that I was having miscarrying.

Now, we are not sure what the heck is going on!

I’m still getting positive HPTs, and not bleeding at all. My HCG levels were so low to begin with that the doctor can’t believe that they were registering on a HPT to begin with. So he for sure doesn’t know why they are still positive.

He gave me two scenarios of what could be going on with me by telling me of examples of what other women have went through. One example, I may still be pregnant. The other, I am not. Helpful, huh?!?!

I have to go back to see him on the 14th and hopefully we will be able to figure out what’s going on FOR SURE!! It’s been so hard wondering if we are going to have a baby or not. It’s hard to prepare yourself emotionally either way!