Thoughts…..

I realize that my posts are far and in between, but for my many one or two readers, I will let you in on a little secret…. I AM EXHAUSTED!!!

Someone in our house has been sick everyday for the past 2 months! No lie! I know this because I have been wanting to go see my Mamaw, who has ovarian cancer, for the past 2 months, but can’t because of one person or another being sick. After being in remission for a little over a year, she was told that it has returned. She wasn’t able to start chemo right off because of how weak she had been. They had every one really worried. She has now been able to start radiation, but still doesn’t need to be around anyone that is sick.

The kids had both gotten RSV, but at their age, there is nothing to do for it, except treat the symptoms. Once that went away, we think Bubba ended up with bronchiolitis. He got over that, just as Hubby got sick with the same junk…oh did I mention that I got it as well?? Well, we ALL got better, I was planning on going to see Mamaw this week, but then Sissy didn’t sleep good last night because of an upset stomach. This morning she woke up, still complaining of her stomach being upset, and then she started throwing up. What next??

I did manage to talk her into eating some french fries from Mickey D’s. After eating a handful of them, she looked at me and said, “Mmmm…..Momma, my belly not hurt anymore! These french fries make me all better!” I sure hope it stays that way, sweet girl, I would hate to see those come back up!

I believe we have set a closing date on our house, finally! March 8th, seems to be the go date. We could do it as early as March 3rd, but the seller can’t move his stuff out until the 8th. So we decided that instead of paying interest on the house, and us not living in it, and him being moved out, and us not being able to do anything to it because we haven’t closed on it, we decided that the 8th would be the best. For now. Our seller seems to be kinda strange….which is a nice way of putting it. It may change before then.

I am SO ready to get into our new house and be able to paint and do what ever we want to it so that it fits us!! The house is also about 400 more sq foot than the house we are renting now is. The kids are gonna have so much more room….not sure if that’s a good thing or not yet though.

So until next time…hope everyone has a good week!

OOOOH. MYYYY.GRACIOUS!

This past weekend was very uneventful, even though it was the much coveted Valentines weekend. Hubby had Saturday, Sunday, and Monday off, and we basically laid around and did nothing.

Sunday morning, the kids and I got up and went to our church for Sunday School, then met Hubby at his family’s church for services.  It started snowing as soon as we walked out of the church doors!

We then took the kids home for some much needed naps! We decided for lunch we would do something we haven’t done in quite some time….we got Chinese to go!!! We used to eat Chinese ALL the time, but since the kids, we don’t ever, and I mean EVER go out to eat anymore. It’s always, “Order something and go get it”. Anyways, as Sissy and I walked out of the door to get lunch, the ground was already covered in white!! Of course, it didn’t last long. By yesterday afternoon, it was all almost gone!

Because of the snow and cold/icy weather, our church activities, including the annual Valentine’s Banquet was cancelled for the evening. So we spend the evening watching the NBA All-Star game….Go Bron-Bron! Go Bron-Bron! LOL…that’s what Hubby and Bubba kept screaming while watching it. Of course Bubba’s was more “Gu BomBom! Gu BomBom!” Too cute!!

I have been wanting a new cell phone. Nothing fancy, I don’t do fancy, but different. I have had a Razr since they first came out, and really wanted something with a QWERTY keyboard. Hubby and I had been checking out the Straight Talk prepaid plan, which happened to have a phone like I wanted, and decided that going with that was going to be the best thing for me. The plan I got is a $45 a month plan with unlimited EVERYTHING!!!

Straight Talk is only available at select WM’s and our hometown WM has been out of them for a while now. So I got online and tracked down the closest WM that had some in stock. There was one about an hour away that had some, and I HAD to go!!

So Yesterday, Monday, morning, we all got up and around and headed that way. We made a day of it. We drove about 30 minutes from that WM and went to the Fort to look for a a new car. Hubby is looking to trade in his 2 door sports car, for a 4 door sports car. LOL

So we went by a Toys R Us, and somehow, Sissy knew exactly what it was and wanted to go. So before leaving town, we stopped.  The kids LOVED it! So many toys, and things to look at. All Sissy could say as she walked down the aisles was, “What in the world?!?! OOOOHHH. MYYYY. GRACIOUS!” She was super excited to see all that stuff!

On the way home from the Fort, our Music and ATV minister from church called me. Since the Valentine’s Banquet was cancelled, they had rescheduled it for last night. They were doing pictures, and the girl who was supposed to do them couldn’t make it, so he called me. I had 30 minutes when we got home to get my camera ready and set me new phone up before having to be there. But I had fun, none the less.

Hubby had to go back to work today, so the kids and I sat around and did nothing today. We did find out that it is a HUGE possibility that we may get to close on our house by the end of next week!!!!!!!! I am SUPER excited about that!!! So more on that later, I think I have bored you guys (or you  one person that reads this!) enough with this post!!

A giveaway link!

So most of you know that I got an awesome new camera for Christmas! I have been looking for a super cute camera bag for it. My wonderful friend, Stacy, has given me what was her first camera bag, and I love that I have one. But I would love it more if I had this one!!! Sorry Stacy, but this bag is SUPER cute!!!

If you want to get in on this giveaway just click on the link above and follow those instructions! Good Luck! But not too much luck, so I REALLY want to win!! LOL

My Little Miracle!

I had to have my yearly check-up today and was reminded just how much God has blessed us!

Before we had Sissy, we had went through 2 miscarriages. We actually didn’t get very excited when we found out we were pregnant with her. Didn’t want to jinx anything!!!

So today, in the doctor’s office I was reminded of just how lucky we are to have our 3 1/2 year old little girl!  One of the workers , LH, was was telling the other worker in the office, ML, about how Sissy is lucky to even be here today. That we had a lot of problems with her.

I made the comment that yes, we had 2 miscarriages before her. LH said, “Yeah, but you had a lot of problems while you were pregnant with her!” She then told ML the story of my first prenatal office visit, the one I totally forgot about after the past few years.

When I went in for my first visit, DR. JM wanted to do an ultrasound, just because of my previous issues. He told us that he couldn’t find a heartbeat, or even a water sac. In fact, he could see no evidence that I was indeed pregnant, except for my urine sample.

He told Hubby and I that he expected me to have a miscarriage and told me the steps to take when the time came. He did say that he wanted me to go to the hospital 2 weeks later to have the ultrasound technician look and make sure that everything had ‘expelled’ like it should, or if, by some miracle, I was still pregnant, that everything was okay.

Within the next two weeks, I experienced no bleeding, but tons of morning sickness instead. When my US appointment time had come, we were prepared for anything.

Tears filled both of mine and Hubby’s eyes as the tech told us the news…. “There is the heartbeat, which is beating fast and healthy!! Everything looks good! Congratulations!!”

Three and a half years later, our little miracle baby can be a handful, but she is most definitely a gift from God!!!

 

 

3 Amigos

I have issues. Let’s just get that out there.

So I realized last night that I have changed. From the person that I was at age 16.

My life has changed. My mindset has changed. My personality has changed (Yes, it can happen…believe me). My body has DEFINITELY changed. But we’re not talking about that…

Anyways, when I was 16 I had an accident (that’s a whole different post). Before this accident, I was a happy go lucky, carefree, didn’t worry about what other people thought girl. She was replaced by a self-conscience, semi-depressed, jealous girl with low self-esteem.

Self-conscience - If I am in a room, or close proximity to just a few other people, and they start whispering…I automatically think they are talking about me.

Semi-depressed – During the winter months, when there is less daylight and sunshine, I have problems with not only with depression, but panic attacks. Thankfully though, having kids has helped me some what with that. My attacks don’t come as frequent as they used to (something my mom was really worried about when Sissy was born).

Low-self esteem – That kind of goes along with being self-conscience. I just feel like I am always being scrutinized. Personality wise, looks wise, everything wise.

Jealous – Oh my! How I hate this!! My jealousy has nothing to do with materialistic things.  It’s more of the relationship type. For example, if I am friends with someone, and they have another friend that they are close to as well, I get jealous of that relationship. I worry that I’m going to lose that friend. Or if I have two friends that are also friends I feel that they do things without me…in turn, pushing me out of the circle.

Childish, I know!!!! I can’t help it!!!  It’s hard for me to get close to anyone because of it. It puts a wedge in between Hubby and I. It makes me want to be a hobbit…okay, so not that extreme. But it is hard to become close friends with anyone.

The Lord has recently blessed me with some wonderful girls in my life though. There are 3 girls that I feel extremely close to, and I have so much in common with all of them.

One of the girls, is married to Hubby’s boss, and she goes to church me. She is also like me in the whole ‘jealousy/relationship thing’.

Another one of the girls, I went to high school with. Her and I were two totally different people. We ran with different crowds. She did the rodeo scene, I played sports. She was a cowgirl, I was a tomboy. Yet, here we are, years later, best friends that have TONS in common!

The third girl, has actually known me most of my life. Her grandma used to keep me when I was little…too little to remember, in fact. Her and I both have blogs, and started following each others. We then became friends on FB, and it progressed from there.

I love these 3 girls! And I know that God has placed us all in each other’s life for a reason. I realized last night that my ‘issues’ are not part of these relationships. I don’t feel insecure or depressed around them. In fact, they make me feel good about myself. I also don’t have any jealousy with them. If they wanted to do something, or they talk without me, I’m okay with it. I don’t feel that they talk about me at all.

Isn’t that what true friendships are really all about??