New House!!!!!

It’s been a little over a week since my last post, and I wondered, “Has anyone really even missed me?”

Then I realized, it doesn’t matter.

I apologize, but I did not start this blog for you. Does that sound bad??? I started it as a place to leave my thoughts, feelings, and memories. A place for me to look back and remember what and how I felt at a certain time in my life. If you happen to have started reading this blog and for some reason decided to follow it, awesome!

Okay, so I got a little off track….okay, a lot of track. I just felt that I needed to write all of that not for your benefit, but for mine. I sometimes get upset that I only have like 14 followers, and only like 2 or 3 of them leave comments…if any. I have to remind myself that I started this blog for me, not for your entertainment, though it helps, but for my memories.

So, back to why I actually started writing this post…

I have been MIA for the past week and a half because we have taken a very important step in our lives. We bought our first house!!! We found this house at the end of January, and after a month and a half, lots of stress, worry, stress, fears, stress, arguing, and did I mention stress, we finally got to close! We closed on Friday, March 12 and got the keys to the house Tuesday, March 16.

We headed over that evening with our bed, and paint supplies and got started with painting. When we finally called it quits, it was midnight and we had one coat on the living and dining room walls.  The next morning, we started up again with me painting and hubby bringing boxes over from the rent house. At around noon, my SIL and my bestie Stacy, came over and helped me paint. We got the rest of the living area and Jordie’s room knocked out before we called it quits at around 630 Wednesday night.

Thursday, I took the kids to MDO while Hubby went to work, and I went to the rent house to finish packing up some stuff and start cleaning. By Friday afternoon, the kids and drove away from the rent house for the last time. With so many emotions running through my head, it resulted in me weeping like a baby!!

Hubby has had his 3 days off yesterday, today, and tomorrow, and we have gotten quite a bit done at the new house. We still have quite a bit more to go though….

As soon as we get it all done, organized, and looking like a house, I will take, and post pictures for your viewing pleasure.

Don’t give up on me, I will be back….eventually!

Whatcha talkin ‘bout Willis??

Kelly did this post yesterday. It made me realize that being from Arkansas, a lot of people have no clue what we mean.

But it’s not only just Arkansas people, but people in general are different. Sometimes it does have to do with the region in which they are from, but sometimes not.

So it made me wonder…

This conversation is pretty much always taking place,

“I’m fixing to run to the store. Do ya’ll need anything?” “Yeah, a coke.”  “Okay. What kind?”  “Dr. Pepper.'” “A’ight.”

It also made me think of all the things that I can’t say. If you read this, and you know me in real life…which most of you do…next time you see me you will have to say all these for you. It doesn’t do it justice on here.

I can NOT say these words: Massachusetts, iron, oil, Vietnamese…there are probably more. And my high school best friend could definitely tell you what they are, She likes to make fun of me all the time for it!

I also tend to make up words. Krink is my big one. I have said it all my life, and can’t NOT say it. If I had enough people that read this blog, I would do a contest to see if any of you could guess what it means. But since I don’t, I’ll just tell you. It’s kink and crick combined. Like, “I have a KRINK in my neck". Yes, I said it all the time!!

So are there any words that you can’t say, have made up, say that people out of your region don’t understand or vice versa?

2 Degrees of Separation

I follow Jen over at First Comes Love, and she recently did this post.

It made me realize that I have never met anyone famous. But I am linked to quite a few by only 2 degrees of separation.

My godparents had some close friends, they may have actually been kin to each other some how or another,  that I knew quite well. They were at every function that we were it at. We even went to church together for years…she was my Sunday School teacher for awhile. Anyways, it turns out that Jake Lloyd aka Anakin Skywalker, is there GRANDSON!!

My mom used to work for DHS years ago. She helped families with disabled kids get into schools, and medical stuff, and other things that I am not quite sure of. The majority of her work involved making house calls. Once in awhile, she would let me go with her on one of these trips. I had a fascination  with Collin Raye at the time and my mom worked with a relative of his. So she took me to see her. I, of course, didn’t get to meet him.

I used to work with a girl at the pharmacy that used to talk about her niece in Hollywood. She once told us to watch Prison Break one particular evening because her niece was going to be on there. Now, years later, that niece is one of the most popular girls on Disney. No, not Miley Cyrus. Demi Lovato!

I also have a friend that has met many, many, MANY, country singers through her job in Nashville. Now, for some odd reason, she is moving back home. Away from Nashville, and all the stars…

So have you met anyone famous…or are you like me and have many 2 Degrees of Separation?

Scatterbrained

Things have been a little crazy around here lately. Okay, so maybe not so much as “around here’ as “in my head”.

In a single hour day, a million different things pass through my mind. Instead of writing a mile long post detailing every little thing, I will just give you a list.  Some things I might one day go into detail about, but tonight, I’ll keep it short and sweet.

1. We should be closing on our house tomorrow. Tomorrow is the close deadline, so I am stressing about what will happen if we DON’T close.
2. When/if we get the house, when are we going to have the time to clean and paint it before we start moving.
3. What colors are we going to paint each room.
4. How much help are we REALLY going to get to help us move. (You know you always will get tons of people that will tell you they will help, but will they really?)
5. Everything that I WANT for the house. (It’s going on our Housewarming registry…whenever that will be).
6. It took me an hour and a half to teach Sissy how to ride her bike the other day, but how long will she remember that.
7. Bubba’s 2nd birthday is in 4 months!
8. The last two also reminds me of how quick my two are growing up!
9. I turn 28 in a little over 2 months!
10. I have been fasting bread for a month, and though I still plan on continuing “until something happens”, it’s starting to get hard again to refrain from certain things…mmmm, doughnuts…
11. The little things my kids do through out the day that make my heart smile.
12. PW posted some stuff regarding her brother made me think of some family memories…this will have to be another post entirely!
13. I miss my besties!! The 3 of us have not ALL gotten together in what seems like forever! Really, it’s been since the end of January. I know this because it was at my house, as we were trying to get the house.
14. I need to start taking more pictures!! I’ve been slacking…just a wee bit!
15. I wonder if a rabbit would be a good pet for the kids….

Get Behind Me Satan!

I’m having a real hard time with things right now. I’m stressed, I’m worried, I’m confused, I’m just not myself.

This whole house buying thing is enough to give me a stroke. It seems as if stuff keeps coming up that results in moving our closing date further away. And if we don’t close in 9 more days…our contract is null and void. Then we have to start all over. I’m SO ready to have it done with so that I will quit worrying about if we are going to get it or not. UGGHH!!

The biggest issue I am having though is something that I have struggled with in the past. Things started to change this past year, and I could tell a difference in myself. Now I notice that I am starting to fall into the same person I was before. And I don’t like it.

I have been fasting since January 10th of this year. As I may have mentioned before, the Holy Spirit spoke to me one night as I was saying my prayers. Plain as day it said, “Fast until something happens.” How do I know it was the Holy Spirit, because there is no way that I would have come up with that on my own.

So I went from fasting anything with flour, to not eating things like bread, rolls, biscuits, doughnuts, bagels, pancakes, waffles, those type of things. I’ve been doing good with it. Almost 2 months later, and I am still fasting. The one thing that I have been praying for has not happened and I don’t intend on giving up until it does.

This is where my faith is starting to run thin. I know that God can do ANYthing, we just have to have faith. It’s only been 2 months, and my faith is starting to dwindle. I know that’s bad. REALLY bad, and I don’t want it to, but I don’t know what else to do but pray.

Because of this, I have also noticed that my fire for God is starting to dwindle as well. I am the secretary of our nursery committee, I help with the 4th and 5th graders on Wednesday night, and I ‘lead’ the 6th –12th grade drama ministry team. But Satan is starting to pull me away from these things little by little.

The youth pastor has decided to move drama practice to Wednesdays nights, which I will not be able to attend on most nights. My SIL is the nursery director, which means sometimes we tend to butt heads…more. And I have recently felt like I would rather stay home that go to church at all except for Sunday mornings!

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?

I can’t stand this! I want God in my life! I NEED God in my life. Why do I suddenly feel like life would be easier without Him?

At times like this I recall something that I was taught one summer at church camp. We were learning about the whole armor of God, and our teacher told us that even with all of that we still have to tell Satan to get behind us! So he had us recite, “Get Behind Me Satan!”

I may need to start reciting this more through out my day.

Thoughts…..

I realize that my posts are far and in between, but for my many one or two readers, I will let you in on a little secret…. I AM EXHAUSTED!!!

Someone in our house has been sick everyday for the past 2 months! No lie! I know this because I have been wanting to go see my Mamaw, who has ovarian cancer, for the past 2 months, but can’t because of one person or another being sick. After being in remission for a little over a year, she was told that it has returned. She wasn’t able to start chemo right off because of how weak she had been. They had every one really worried. She has now been able to start radiation, but still doesn’t need to be around anyone that is sick.

The kids had both gotten RSV, but at their age, there is nothing to do for it, except treat the symptoms. Once that went away, we think Bubba ended up with bronchiolitis. He got over that, just as Hubby got sick with the same junk…oh did I mention that I got it as well?? Well, we ALL got better, I was planning on going to see Mamaw this week, but then Sissy didn’t sleep good last night because of an upset stomach. This morning she woke up, still complaining of her stomach being upset, and then she started throwing up. What next??

I did manage to talk her into eating some french fries from Mickey D’s. After eating a handful of them, she looked at me and said, “Mmmm…..Momma, my belly not hurt anymore! These french fries make me all better!” I sure hope it stays that way, sweet girl, I would hate to see those come back up!

I believe we have set a closing date on our house, finally! March 8th, seems to be the go date. We could do it as early as March 3rd, but the seller can’t move his stuff out until the 8th. So we decided that instead of paying interest on the house, and us not living in it, and him being moved out, and us not being able to do anything to it because we haven’t closed on it, we decided that the 8th would be the best. For now. Our seller seems to be kinda strange….which is a nice way of putting it. It may change before then.

I am SO ready to get into our new house and be able to paint and do what ever we want to it so that it fits us!! The house is also about 400 more sq foot than the house we are renting now is. The kids are gonna have so much more room….not sure if that’s a good thing or not yet though.

So until next time…hope everyone has a good week!

OOOOH. MYYYY.GRACIOUS!

This past weekend was very uneventful, even though it was the much coveted Valentines weekend. Hubby had Saturday, Sunday, and Monday off, and we basically laid around and did nothing.

Sunday morning, the kids and I got up and went to our church for Sunday School, then met Hubby at his family’s church for services.  It started snowing as soon as we walked out of the church doors!

We then took the kids home for some much needed naps! We decided for lunch we would do something we haven’t done in quite some time….we got Chinese to go!!! We used to eat Chinese ALL the time, but since the kids, we don’t ever, and I mean EVER go out to eat anymore. It’s always, “Order something and go get it”. Anyways, as Sissy and I walked out of the door to get lunch, the ground was already covered in white!! Of course, it didn’t last long. By yesterday afternoon, it was all almost gone!

Because of the snow and cold/icy weather, our church activities, including the annual Valentine’s Banquet was cancelled for the evening. So we spend the evening watching the NBA All-Star game….Go Bron-Bron! Go Bron-Bron! LOL…that’s what Hubby and Bubba kept screaming while watching it. Of course Bubba’s was more “Gu BomBom! Gu BomBom!” Too cute!!

I have been wanting a new cell phone. Nothing fancy, I don’t do fancy, but different. I have had a Razr since they first came out, and really wanted something with a QWERTY keyboard. Hubby and I had been checking out the Straight Talk prepaid plan, which happened to have a phone like I wanted, and decided that going with that was going to be the best thing for me. The plan I got is a $45 a month plan with unlimited EVERYTHING!!!

Straight Talk is only available at select WM’s and our hometown WM has been out of them for a while now. So I got online and tracked down the closest WM that had some in stock. There was one about an hour away that had some, and I HAD to go!!

So Yesterday, Monday, morning, we all got up and around and headed that way. We made a day of it. We drove about 30 minutes from that WM and went to the Fort to look for a a new car. Hubby is looking to trade in his 2 door sports car, for a 4 door sports car. LOL

So we went by a Toys R Us, and somehow, Sissy knew exactly what it was and wanted to go. So before leaving town, we stopped.  The kids LOVED it! So many toys, and things to look at. All Sissy could say as she walked down the aisles was, “What in the world?!?! OOOOHHH. MYYYY. GRACIOUS!” She was super excited to see all that stuff!

On the way home from the Fort, our Music and ATV minister from church called me. Since the Valentine’s Banquet was cancelled, they had rescheduled it for last night. They were doing pictures, and the girl who was supposed to do them couldn’t make it, so he called me. I had 30 minutes when we got home to get my camera ready and set me new phone up before having to be there. But I had fun, none the less.

Hubby had to go back to work today, so the kids and I sat around and did nothing today. We did find out that it is a HUGE possibility that we may get to close on our house by the end of next week!!!!!!!! I am SUPER excited about that!!! So more on that later, I think I have bored you guys (or you  one person that reads this!) enough with this post!!

A giveaway link!

So most of you know that I got an awesome new camera for Christmas! I have been looking for a super cute camera bag for it. My wonderful friend, Stacy, has given me what was her first camera bag, and I love that I have one. But I would love it more if I had this one!!! Sorry Stacy, but this bag is SUPER cute!!!

If you want to get in on this giveaway just click on the link above and follow those instructions! Good Luck! But not too much luck, so I REALLY want to win!! LOL

My Little Miracle!

I had to have my yearly check-up today and was reminded just how much God has blessed us!

Before we had Sissy, we had went through 2 miscarriages. We actually didn’t get very excited when we found out we were pregnant with her. Didn’t want to jinx anything!!!

So today, in the doctor’s office I was reminded of just how lucky we are to have our 3 1/2 year old little girl!  One of the workers , LH, was was telling the other worker in the office, ML, about how Sissy is lucky to even be here today. That we had a lot of problems with her.

I made the comment that yes, we had 2 miscarriages before her. LH said, “Yeah, but you had a lot of problems while you were pregnant with her!” She then told ML the story of my first prenatal office visit, the one I totally forgot about after the past few years.

When I went in for my first visit, DR. JM wanted to do an ultrasound, just because of my previous issues. He told us that he couldn’t find a heartbeat, or even a water sac. In fact, he could see no evidence that I was indeed pregnant, except for my urine sample.

He told Hubby and I that he expected me to have a miscarriage and told me the steps to take when the time came. He did say that he wanted me to go to the hospital 2 weeks later to have the ultrasound technician look and make sure that everything had ‘expelled’ like it should, or if, by some miracle, I was still pregnant, that everything was okay.

Within the next two weeks, I experienced no bleeding, but tons of morning sickness instead. When my US appointment time had come, we were prepared for anything.

Tears filled both of mine and Hubby’s eyes as the tech told us the news…. “There is the heartbeat, which is beating fast and healthy!! Everything looks good! Congratulations!!”

Three and a half years later, our little miracle baby can be a handful, but she is most definitely a gift from God!!!

 

 

3 Amigos

I have issues. Let’s just get that out there.

So I realized last night that I have changed. From the person that I was at age 16.

My life has changed. My mindset has changed. My personality has changed (Yes, it can happen…believe me). My body has DEFINITELY changed. But we’re not talking about that…

Anyways, when I was 16 I had an accident (that’s a whole different post). Before this accident, I was a happy go lucky, carefree, didn’t worry about what other people thought girl. She was replaced by a self-conscience, semi-depressed, jealous girl with low self-esteem.

Self-conscience - If I am in a room, or close proximity to just a few other people, and they start whispering…I automatically think they are talking about me.

Semi-depressed – During the winter months, when there is less daylight and sunshine, I have problems with not only with depression, but panic attacks. Thankfully though, having kids has helped me some what with that. My attacks don’t come as frequent as they used to (something my mom was really worried about when Sissy was born).

Low-self esteem – That kind of goes along with being self-conscience. I just feel like I am always being scrutinized. Personality wise, looks wise, everything wise.

Jealous – Oh my! How I hate this!! My jealousy has nothing to do with materialistic things.  It’s more of the relationship type. For example, if I am friends with someone, and they have another friend that they are close to as well, I get jealous of that relationship. I worry that I’m going to lose that friend. Or if I have two friends that are also friends I feel that they do things without me…in turn, pushing me out of the circle.

Childish, I know!!!! I can’t help it!!!  It’s hard for me to get close to anyone because of it. It puts a wedge in between Hubby and I. It makes me want to be a hobbit…okay, so not that extreme. But it is hard to become close friends with anyone.

The Lord has recently blessed me with some wonderful girls in my life though. There are 3 girls that I feel extremely close to, and I have so much in common with all of them.

One of the girls, is married to Hubby’s boss, and she goes to church me. She is also like me in the whole ‘jealousy/relationship thing’.

Another one of the girls, I went to high school with. Her and I were two totally different people. We ran with different crowds. She did the rodeo scene, I played sports. She was a cowgirl, I was a tomboy. Yet, here we are, years later, best friends that have TONS in common!

The third girl, has actually known me most of my life. Her grandma used to keep me when I was little…too little to remember, in fact. Her and I both have blogs, and started following each others. We then became friends on FB, and it progressed from there.

I love these 3 girls! And I know that God has placed us all in each other’s life for a reason. I realized last night that my ‘issues’ are not part of these relationships. I don’t feel insecure or depressed around them. In fact, they make me feel good about myself. I also don’t have any jealousy with them. If they wanted to do something, or they talk without me, I’m okay with it. I don’t feel that they talk about me at all.

Isn’t that what true friendships are really all about??